Life as we know it...

is short.

My grandfather, who I've always referred to by his name, Jerry, is not doing well. So I'm dealing with that stress. They gave him the weekend to live, but it's seeming that he'll at least make it past that. His oxygen levels keep dipping low. Death is a hard thing to deal with. This is the man who helped raise me, essentially my father figure. I'm trying to get to the nursing home as much as I can, but I'm finding that's hard to do with 2 kids...working...and just everyday life.

On pregnancy...it seems to be going well. I'm not gaining weight still, but I know that I will eventually. It has to catch onto me sooner or later. I was finally brave enough to break it to my bosses. The looks on their faces...wow. Let me tell ya, they were shocked. I've never really opened up to my personal life to them because we just dont have that kind of relationship. I know this baby is a blessing and I know that God wont give me more than I can handle...although some days I feel like he likes to test me!! :0)

On the kids...Dylan is doing well. He had a little bug last week that Cain has seemed to catch. Nothing too serious, just running fevers off and on. No fun. Cain is doing well also. Our relationship is seeming to get better. We still have our ups and downs, but lately and hopefully it'll stay this way, we've had more ups than downs. I can't blame everything on my hormones but I know that they've played a part in my shortness with both kids. I'm trying to work on that and trying to let them speak their mind and not get so frustrated with them. Sometimes the thought of adding a 3rd kid into the mix makes me nervous but I know I will do just fine!

And finally...On Toby and I....we had a rough patch going on for a little bit, but things have seemed to work themselves out. I think we're much more understanding of each other and it's getting easier for me to get things out that before I would have even been to scared to say.

So overall the good outweighs the bad in my life right now. Things are going well for me,and I hope that they continue to stay that way.